Patricia Raybon honestly shares the regret and grief she carried after aborting two children. She writes, "I had told myself that an abortion would end my problems, not complicate them by bringing an innocent life into my own upheaval. I swallowed Satan's lie, that is, then spit it out again, saying it with my own mouth."

Then she shares the following letter she wrote to her two aborted children:

Dear Babies:

This is Mama. You will know my voice, I think, even though we were together for such a short time. I did a bad thing. I didn't trust God. I didn't understand that God would have made everything okay. I was like Peter, [who] … looked at the waves, not at Jesus. And when he looked at the waves, he started to sink—down, down, down.

That's how I felt, like I was sinking down. When the doctors said you were growing inside of me, that's how I felt, so I didn't … know how to love you. I was afraid. Oh babies, I had made so many, many mistakes. And I was afraid. So I let fear convince me that more babies would just make things worse.

Instead, look what I did. I robbed us. First, I robbed you—taking your own lives … I didn't think I was strong enough. So I robbed myself of all the joy you would've brought me too. Brought all of us, your sisters, your family, and for each of you, your daddy. I thought we'd have more problems. That we didn't have enough money. That we didn't have enough time. That we didn't have enough love. But I just didn't know then that God is bigger. And God would make everything all right. I didn't know …

I know you are in heaven, waiting for us—waiting for me. I know you've been waiting, looking every day, wondering when I would get there. Oh, babies, I'm trying to get there … to learn what God wants me to learn, so I can make it to you.